Liturgy: Praxis & Pistis

A record of the evolving understanding of Christian liturgy by an ordinary Christian who came to faith among the 20th Century great-grandsons of Ulrich Zwingli. Having left his cradle faith for more sacramental and liturgical climes (yet, still within classic Protestanism), Brother Quotidian seeks to understand the impact of liturgy on Christian spirituality and maturity, and to engage the critical comments, suggestions, and contributions to his quest from others he encounters on the same road.

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A Christian since 1970, married since 1981, four-time father; vocational Christian minister; and, currently a priest in the United Anglican Church.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Liturgy as Poison

  
Finally, I’ve gotten this finished! Its delay had nothing to do with the difficulty of the subject matter, which is as plain as the miter on a bishop.

So, here’s a lesson on liturgy from a car wreck …

As a teenager, my aunt was traveling across the Mojave Desert with other family members one evening 50 years ago. In those days, the traffic across the desert at night was pretty thin. Rare even. In the middle of nowhere, a blowout at a most inopportune spot sent the car careening off the road into a desert wash.

No one was killed. All but my aunt were banged up and unconscious. My aunt, however, was merely pinned in the wreckage. The car did not burn, fortunately, but that also meant it was totally dark. And, the horn was blowing. It kept blowing until the battery was exhausted. That probably took over an hour, maybe longer. No one knows, for no one but my aunt was able to hear it.

And, she doesn’t want to remember it. When everyone was rescued, my aunt was relatively uninjured in body, but pretty well brutalized in her mind (by the car horn). For months thereafter, the sound of a car horn blowing would provoke her to uncontrollable crying. For years, she experienced what today are called anxiety attacks, always prompted by the blowing of a car horn, especially a long, steady blow on a car horn.

No one needs a Ph.D. in psychology to understand why car horns (in themselves, innocent things) provoked such powerful negative emotions in my aunt. For her, for the reasons described, car horns became a kind of poison, a toxic trigger, a sensate experience welded to a horrible situation. We have all heard about such things, and perhaps you have your own equivalent.

I know Christians with this kind of problem, except it’s not a car horn, but religious liturgy which provokes all the negative emotions. For them, liturgy is poison.

Of course, liturgy cannot be poisonous, any more than a car horn. But, (as my aunt’s experience demonstrates) it can sure facilitate the effects of something poisonous. Exactly how it does so takes a bit more explaining, more than I intend to go into in this blog entry (more about that when I talk about sacramental dynamics later). For now, however, I simply want to make this point: whether for good or ill, liturgy leaves a brand on us, and that brand is very difficult (perhaps, in some cases, impossible) to remove.

“Branding” is a harsh term, and so it’s not useful to denote the ways that all of us are “branded” by things in our lives which amount to liturgy, and which we would call liturgy, except that these “liturgical” occasions in our lives are not really religious in nature, and do not have the worship of God as their purpose. Consider Thanksgiving Day dinner, for example. Or birthday observances, or national holidays (the Fourth of July in America will do for an example). The observance of these holidays marks us every bit as much as a branding iron would, and the effects are there for us to see, even if others cannot.

My wife, born on December 26, never feels like it is her birthday unless she gets a present to mark that particular day. It makes no difference that Christmas was an occasion for gift giving – that was to honor (even if only mistily) God’s gift of Jesus to the world. To mark her birthday, it takes a gift for her, for that day.

Or consider the birthday cake. Like me, my wife’s birthday is “off” if there is no cake to mark the occasion. One holiday when she was a teenager, she was in the home of a matron whose Christmas celebration included the making of cakes. My wife relates that this matron baked 11 cakes – each one of them a different kind. As family and friends circulated through her home, the cakes were offered to her guests. Here’s the interesting thing – amidst the abundance of cakes, my wife felt her birthday was diminished, because not a single one of those cakes was ever designated as “hers,” the cake to mark her birthday.

We can multiply these kinds of examples all day. Unless our childhoods were utterly chaotic, they possessed a variety of rhythms, connected to festal occasions. And the repeated observance of those occasions, in the company of other family members (often, with neighbors thrown in for extra fun), helped to shape our identities, our expectations of the future, our social equilibrium, our sense of home, our sense of place, our perspective on everything from ants to angels. We are social creatures, and the rituals by which social life proceeds – birthdays, other anniversaries, seasonal experiences, weddings, funerals, baptisms, annual outings to the mountains, or the beach, or to family reunions (the possibilities go on and on and on) – all these “cultural liturgies” form a matrix that creates, shapes, and sustains our identities as human beings.

Now, against this background, let’s narrow our focus to things religious, things that might more obviously be called “Christian liturgy.” And let us consider a certain kind of Christian (I know several personally) …

Benjamin was reared in a Roman Catholic family. His parents faithfully took him to mass every Sunday. It was a pre-Vatican II mass, so it didn’t have the features which make traditional Catholics today groan and mutter curses under their breath. Benjamin was not rebellious as a boy, or a teenager. However, he also was not engaged at any spiritual level with the masses he attended. There were forms aplenty (genuflecting at the pew before entering, signing oneself with the cross at certain points in the liturgy, receiving the host from the priest), but they were by and large empty of meaning.

In college, Benjamin met a campus minister from Campus Crusade for Christ. He was vibrantly enthusiastic about his faith, he exuded confidence in Christ and the gospel, he fearlessly witnessed to his faith to unbelievers (including Benjamin), and Benjamin’s heart was captured. He made a profession of faith in Christ at a rally held in a large private dorm next to the campus. The Crusade staff member took Benjamin as his own disciple, tutored him in the rudiments of the Christian faith, trained him to share his faith with others, and brought Benjamin along with him as he ministered to others and shared the gospel with unbelieving students. Benjamin grew in his faith; he kept growing after he departed the campus. Benjamin is, today, a committed Christian husband, father, and church leader.

And, Benjamin hates liturgy.

When Benjamin visits his mother’s Catholic church he gets the willies. When Benjamin visits a high-church Anglican service, he gets the willies. When Benjamin visits a nondenominational church that sprinkles a bit of liturgy into its worship service (say, for example, the antiphonal reading of a psalm), Benjamin gets the willies. Benjamin avoids liturgical services if he has a chance to do so.

For Benjamin, liturgy is poison. Why?

I knew people like Benjamin before I ever understood why. Almost all of them were former Roman Catholics. Or, former Orthodox. Or, former Episcopalians. Or, former Lutherans. They were all from Christian traditions that have a pronounced commitment to liturgy as a form of worship. Another common feature is this: they all came to a saving, living faith in Jesus outside their cradle Christian communions. And, finally, they all judged the liturgical forms of their cradle communions to be the reason why they never came to faith in Christ. The murky liturgy – murky because it was never explained, never expounded – is often viewed by these kinds of Christians as a positive hindrance to understanding the gospel.

Sometimes, it is another factor which sets one against these traditional forms of Christian piety and worship. Consider, for example, the following statement by a choral director that appears in a blog where the subject is the role of the choir master to the pastor of a congregation:

Church polity, especially that of the Anglicans and Romans, is, for some narcissistic types, an open invitation to abuse the staff. Many a musician has been summarily fired for no good reason, to feed the inflated ego of “Herr Pastor”. I personally do not intend ever again to work in the Anglican church — the church of my childhood — because of their polity, which is very much like “the Divine Right of Kings”. Yes, the pastor does and should have the final word, but that does NOT give him the right to abuse the musicians — passive-aggressive games, etc.


Now, a question: what do experiences like this tell us about Christian liturgy? Before I give an answer, here are some illegitimate answers:

Liturgy is bad for you. I reject this out of hand, because liturgy is the creature of God Himself. Whatever else you say about the Old Testament system of worship, it is robustly liturgical. To suppose that God mandated a method of worship that was intrinsically toxic to one’s spirit is simply wrong-headed.

Liturgy is meaningless mumbo jumbo. I wonder about this. Certainly, an unexplained liturgy might reduce to meaningless mumbo jumbo. And, I have no doubt that a chronic avoidance of explanation lies behind many cases of “toxic” liturgy.

But, suppose you are an alien from Planet Zorg, equipped with an invisibility shield and a little thingy in your ear that automatically translates any alien language into something you can understand. You teleport to earth, materializing (invisibly, remember) beside a man leading a goat by a leash to another man, robed in white, who stands with a large knife beside a pile of wood. The man with the goat puts his hands on the goat’s head and begins to say things like “I have lied to my boss, I have stolen from my brother, I cursed God and man when I ought to have given thanks.” He steps back, and the man with a knife slits the animal’s throat. Its blood pours onto the ground. He heaves the carcass onto the pile of wood, and the whole thing is ignited. The goat-bringer and the goat-slayer stand and watch until nothing but ashes remain. Then the goat-slayer turns and says “Go in peace, my son. The Lord has forgiven you.”

Strange to your alien ears and experience? Let’s suppose so.

Beyond comprehension? Not at all, especially after meditation on what you have seen and heard. Especially after you have seen this enacted over and over. Your understanding may never be complete without a teacher; but, it is poppycock to suppose you cannot puzzle out something authentic about the meaning of the ritual you have observed.

And this very ritual, or several of them fundamentally similar to it, is a staple of Old Testament spirituality. The point: even without instruction, the meaning of the liturgy is not impossible to see, at least in its outlines. And, of course, God made provision for instruction by scattering the Levites throughout all the cities of Israel, rather than giving them a territory to themselves.

If the liturgy of one’s cradle communion is opaque, it is no fault of the liturgy. And, it is not the fault of liturgy that its observers abide in ignorance of its meaning. My children were always asking me, “Daddy, why do we kneel before entering the pew? Why do we bow when the cross passes down the aisle? Why does the priest say ‘The blood of Christ, the cup of salvation’?”

Blaming liturgy for your ignorance of the meaning of liturgy is like blaming your scurvy on oranges because no one ever explained the nutritional value of Vitamin C.

Liturgy hides the truth of the gospel. Liturgy confuses the truth of the gospel. These are the same or different criticisms, depending on whether the critic thinks there is any shred of the gospel buried in the liturgy he criticizes. But, both are contradicted by the simple fact that liturgy, when it is informed and shaped by the Biblical revelation, is the surest way to lodge the gospel firmly in the heart of the Christian. Christian life begins with a liturgy – baptism. Christian life is sustained by a liturgy – the Eucharist. And, if it is a liturgy that follows the shape of the Christian worship in all places through all the ages (excepting certain backwaters of the Reformation), the Christian liturgy of worship will exercise the Christian spirit in a wide array of spiritually wholesome, spiritually edifying, spiritually maturing behaviors – prayer, confession of sin, confession of faith, praise, sacrifice, thanksgiving, intercession for others, receiving the Word of God, learning doctrine, finding correction, being equipped for the work of ministry. All these things are done, and done best, when done with, in, and through liturgy. The particulars I will expound in later blog entries.

What, then, do we learn about liturgy from those who are allergic to it? Just this: liturgy is incredibly powerful to shape the faith of the soul who encounters it. From those for whom liturgy is a poison, we learn that this power can work for ill as well as for good. And, paradoxically, for some unfortunate Christians (and, of course, I judge them to be very unfortunate indeed), their very aversion to liturgy is a pungent testimony to liturgy’s power to fix belief into a matrix that is very stable, and probably unalterable (except, perhaps, through very severe trauma). In their case, their encounter with liturgy has inoculated them against liturgy. Their lot is like the man who saw so little of value with his eyes that he poked them out with a stick, and then judged that those with eyes were seeing only deceitful mirages.

Can one live without eyes? Of course. I have a friend who is blind from birth. He understands on one level that he is handicapped; but, he does not mourn for having never seen a rose. He and I know that one day he will see a rose, and much more than a rose. And, by God’s grace, he is patient to await that restored vision.

I have friends who have eyes that, nevertheless, do not see. They do not see the things liturgy would show them, they do not receive what liturgy could impart. Where others see grace, and beauty, and heavenly glory, they see only confused mumbo jumbo. I know that one day they will see the grace and beauty and glory, for they will join the Church Triumphant in those luxuriantly liturgical courts of heaven and its worship around the Throne of the Lamb.

Can I help them enjoy a foretaste of the world to come? I honestly do not know.

Unworking the mysterious works of liturgy on the Christian soul is a puzzle I do not know how to solve. But, the intractability of this puzzle convinces me that liturgy is not a game, nor a dilettante’s pastime.

8 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

This allergy takes on a more troublesome aspect when it is found within a marriage--when one has discovered the richness of the ancient way of worship while one's spouse can't stand it or at the least couldn't care less.

Have you run across this yet in your journey?

6:29 AM  
Blogger Lindy said...

Being a Cradle Episcopalian is sorta like being a bird. A bird is born knowing how to fly, has parents who fly but never gives a thought to thrust and lift..it just does it...pretty lame but the best I could come up with on a Monday.

I think sometimes imprints are made that have no relationship to the matter at hand...Hate Liturgy? is it possible you resented your parents forcing you to go to church? disliked the preacher? hated the music? were allergic to the perfume of the elderly lady who always sat in pew 5? or the town bully was in your Sunday school class?

My problem was the exact opposite...LOVED the Liturgy...Morning Prayer, Communion, Evening Prayer, all 3 hours of Good Friday..all of it..even as a small child...there was such a "rush" when the service started, a plugging in to something so much larger than myself, that was just addictive.

The tears and tantrums, started when I HAD to go to Sunday School .....what did making paper flowers have to do with Jesus? or coloring a mimeo of an ornate cross compare with hearing the lessons read and the thunder of a 2 tier organ and full choir sing a Wesley hymn?

What saved me was having a grandmother who felt the same way and allowed me to stay with her thru the service...all went well for years, she explained what I questioned...sometimes reducing it to "that's what we do" but for the most part she answered everything. My conformation class was a joke, the seminarian who ran it was more interested in social issues (it was the 60's) than answering my questions on the Episcopal faith. Nanny, Mom and Aunt (Godmother) to the rescue!!!!! learn the Catechism and 39 Articles, write down some questions and ask them in class...hard to tell who was more relieved when the Bishop came, me or the seminarian.

Oh there were rough spots in the road, for a couple of years I was pretty snotty...really put the pissy in Episcopalian...Oh you don't want to go to church?..ok
Don't believe in God?...ok
See you when we get back, Oh by the way, God loves and believes in you, and Jesus died for you...bye grrrr...it was like punching a pillow...and really took the fun out of being a rebellious teenager.

My having married someone who is from a far from Episcopal tradition has been trying to say the least. The first years were spent listening to him make nasty comments about "the show" and being Biblically Lite. Having no standards (what???) too much hocus pocus etc.
36 years later....
Weddings, Baptisms and Funerals never have the same depth of seriousness for him except in an Episc or RC service. ....oh dear...could it be he got sucked into the Liturgy? I have never required him to keep me company in the pew, never required my children either. He is always invited...goes when the Spirit moves him.
He will never be an Episcopalian, will likely never take communion with me...makes me sad, but it's OK. Just as my mother, grandmother and aunt did years ago...making it a non issue is more productive....pass the pillow!!

L

9:50 AM  
Blogger Jonathan said...

An excellent post. I am one who has moved from a Calvary Chapel background to feeling at home in a Greek Orthodox service. If you had told me three years ago that I would have icons in my home and say written prayers, I would have thought you were nuts. It is strange to me that people would want to leave these liturgically rich traditions for the confusion of non-denominational Christianity. But it might be that I have carried over some of the positive aspects of my non-denom days (regular bible reading and evangelism)into my liturgical experiences. I would want to agree with you that part of the problem is a lack of explanation of the liturgy. But I am sure that there are other reasons too. On the whole it is a confusing issue. But liturgy does give a person more of a connection with the Bible. The book of Revelation describes the worship of God more like an Orthodox service than the non-denom church on the corner. Will such people be alienated in heaven? By God's grace I assume not. but I am sure there will have to be a culture shift.

11:09 AM  
Blogger Jonathan said...

Excellent post! I'm from a non-liturgical background (Southern Baptist- my dad is an SBC minister), but am currently looking earnestly into Anglicanism, after I 'discovered' the writings of the Fathers and liturgical and sacramental Christianity. I'm still living at home, in a small town with no orthodox Anglican Church nearby, so I'm still a member in the congregation my dad pastors. We've had a few interesting conversations on things theological :)

I think that a lot of Evangelicals automatically connect liturgy with Rome, which means, of course, liturgy is at best unecessary, at worst a diabolical obscuring of Christ. And then there is the trend I have seen among my peers (college-age) to view even traditional evangelical worship as dead tradition, bound by old convention, and not 'Spirit-led'. There is also a tendency I have noticed in my dad to connect liturgy with liberalism and loose morality: a connection, in light of the apostacy of so much of American liturgical mainstream Protestantism, that is not too hard to understand unfortunately.

10:28 PM  
Blogger Brother Quotidian said...

To the Anonymous with the spouse who is allergic to liturgy ... I don't know what to say beyond pointing out that it could be (and for many is) worse, as in having a spouse who is utterly outside the faith entirely.

Here is as close as I can come to sympathizing with you. As a young boy, I showed (I think) an extraordinary talent for music, not just performance, but for composition. At least, I can say that my spirit gravitated strongly in that direction. Taking the Baroque and Classical masters as models (I memorized dozens of symphonies from listening to them over and over and over), I would mimick their efforts in the lonely recesses of my own mind.

None of that ever "got out." After indulging me a few years with piano lessons, my practical parents pushed me firmly and unwaveringly toward the physical sciences and mathmatics. I never took a single lesson in music theory, which is like someone longing to write stirring rhetoric never being given lessons in reading or writing, or a pictorial artist never progressing beyond colored sand in a sandbox.

Advancing years indicate to me that Mom and Pop did NOT rear me in the way I ought to have gone. And, indeed, I did depart from it, for I am not making my living in the physical sciences or math. But, neither am I making a profession in music. And my increasing appreciation for music and the composer's skills ... well, it makes me really wistful and sad about what might have been.

Except, I know I shall have an eternity to find out what might have been. I'm one of those who will simply have to wait, to wait on God to take me home where there is more than an old broken down piano to play on, where there are angels who forgot more about music theory than any human ever knew, angels who are supposed to minister to the heirs of salvation.

So, I can daydream about learning to play every instrument ever invented (and some whose invention I still haven't learned about). And, they're not daydreams, for eternity is a very long time, and there's no end of room for all the what-if's of my life.

10:58 PM  
Blogger Brother Quotidian said...

To Lindy,

I don't suppose we could come at a common love from directions any more opposite than yours and mine! I welcome your comments from that perspective. They will help balance mine, for I candidly acknowledge I'm a kid who's just found his Daddy's toolbox, and I'm not at all sure what all these interesting things are supposed to accomplish. But, wowee! Do they look cool!

If, for you, they are staples of a long spiritual heritage, I hope you won't fine my enthusiasm gauche or offputting.

11:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I feel a little stupid leaving a comment on something over a year old. The article came up in google search I did because my AMiA parish is checking into the possibility of a common liturgy for 3 congregations.

The contemporary congregation is demonstrating an aversion to liturgy at all and wants none of it (they had been using 79 Rite II Lite, only the absolute minimum necessary to be acceptable by the diocese, back when we were ECUSA). Many if not most of them come from non-liturgical backgrounds (some were un-churched entirely).

I am at a loss to understand why they are in an Anglican church to start with. But I can tell you, having grown up in the most revisionist parishes my parents could find (we were military, moved every 3 years, so there were a number of them) that it was the 1928 that taught me that there is a God, and that He is very , very different from what the clergy was teaching. It was that liturgy that made me a believer as a child.

I commonly hear from this congregation that they think it (and vestments) are detrimental to mission. (I haven't heard yet that the Catholic Church is the whore of babylon but I'm waiting...)

So I've asked AMiA for some figures on their membership at large's backgrounds. I am certain that for at least the last two years an overwhelming percentage of their new members are Episcopalian refugees who are allergic to neither litugy nor vestments and still have a love for their tradition to some degree. I bet a large proportion was like that before two years ago...

Thanks for writing on this!

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